Cinderella by Leeya

Hi mate,
I've just seen your letter! I don't know how to express myself, since I love you so much! I really confused! It’s been so complicated to me! You said the story of you met the girl you were looking for! And now I am going to say mine! I've got to start this job before I met my typical mate! Whenever I do something I have reason for that! The reason I decided to do this job was making me so busy that I couldn't think of any other thing around me!
Al, (I know you don't like to hear about it, but I have to tell you, since you are my mate!)
I was engaged by last Aug. and faced a lot of strange and new troubles, which I’ve never ever seen in my whole life those slowly madder us started to be apart and finally break up! I knew I could be strong enough to bear with loneliness, but at that time, I had many other things in my mind, which I lost them! I’ve been losing my self confidence, my ideas, my beliefs, my heart, and whatever else you could even think about! During the short while he and I were together, I really cannot remember what had happened! I can’t remember what made me tolerate those much of hurts! He seemed to be open minded or whatever else and I didn’t like it! He actually didn’t care about what I was doing! The only things I had were, my office and two days a week my university! Maybe you still don’t know what our real problem was! He didn’t allow me to see my parents. He didn’t want me to continue my studies. He didn’t want me to have my house in my hometow! (He said sale it and bring the money for my car!) He didn’t want me have my mobile and he forced me to sale my number! Do you want to know more!!?!? He wanted me only for sex! His brain was in his testicles! I don’t want to be this rude, but he deserve even more that this words!
After all those I really didn’t know what to do! I was messed up by a world of troubles; I didn’t know what my parents’ reaction would have been! I didn’t know how to tell them I’ve lost Southampton University’s registration just because of him. I couldn’t tell them why I decided not to have mobile! And the most important thing was I ashamed of myself to myself! I killed Leeya and all her wishes for a fool guy and for nothing! I thought to myself I could never ever find a logical man. I could never ever find my type! I would be alone as I always have been. So I decided to make myself busy with job! I’m not either a playgirl or having bunch of closed friends! I had nothing then! The only safe and secure way that I could select to go was this way. (Besides I trust in the result of this way as well!)
By the time I have been presented I didn’t know you! Just all above were in my mind. On the other hand, I had been researching and investigating about a money maker and trustworthy case; I accepted the truth of this system and started this job, but hadn’t been registering yet. The night I met you was the night I decided to pay the money and register.
The day before your party, Rad and I were at Jouseph. He said there is a small family party at my aunt because my cousins had come from the UK and... His mother and he invited us to your party. I said I am not sure if I could come (because I was depressed and not in the mood) but Rad said if you don’t come, I won’t go either; then I said ok, what kind of party it is? Formal or informal? What do we have to wear? And he said it is a small family party…
I went to Rad the next day and we got ready. I didn’t wear so much of make up and didn’t even brush my hair! I just wore some simple clothes to attend there only because of Rad and her BF.
We arrived at Jouseph by 7:30 or 8:00 if I’m right! We were waiting Jouseph's friends to come to move. They finally came and we moved toward you. Meanwhile I was attacked by Jouseph's brother and friend's staring eyes on me and I was just nagging for them to Rad! As soon as we entered the gate of your house I saw a boy with proudly looking eyes, standing by the door. He shook hand with me and said welcome. We have been introduced to the people there and went to take our cloths of! To be honest I have not been nagging that much for a long time! Poor Rad! She just was trying to make and keep me happy! We have been guided by the handsome boy to find a seat. Music was running and suddenly I was captured by the nice dance the boy played! I said to Rad: see how fancy he is dancing with that girl! Who is he? And she asked Jouseph who he is! Jouseph said he is my cousin and he is the one who has just come back from the UK and that’s his brother! I said: “wow, they look like so much! Are they twins?” and Jouseph called the boy to introduce to me and said to me: “ I brought “A” to you” and I responded you’ve found “the nice 10” for him! Then the boy asked if I’d drink! I said no! After that Jouseph seemed to feel more brotherly to me! He took the nice boy’s hand and brought to me, then said you can only dance with Al! No one else! Then the boy said such a lovely girl must have BF! And Jouseph said no she hasn’t! She is alone! I asked: “are you twins” and he said yes! I am 15 minutes younger! Then he invited me to dance. He went to select a suitable music, so that we could dance! His glances, his dancing, his words, his behaviors had really turned me on! I didn’t nag any longer that night! While Al was selecting music for us, another boy had asked me to dance with, but I respectfully refused since I just wanted to dance with Al!
Then we danced! Wow, I had never been in such a feeling before! I always wished I could dance with someone who knows dancing well! But there was no guy in my life to dance with me that enjoyable! If it was not my first time to see that boy, I would absolutely embrace and kiss him!! I asked him why he came back from the UK and he said because of his twin brother. Then he asked about other people there and I said my idea in English. He surprised and liked me more because I knew English! That night had continued with laughter dance and joy and I would never ever forget that. We exchanged our telephone numbers and after the party left there to Jouseph. We danced there again and he kissed me! I felt like trembling all over my heart! I was scared, scared of falling in love! But I was interested in him. So I didn’t resist on it! That night was the most memorable night in my whole life! I had never experienced such a night with a lot of emotion and feeling with someone rather that new before!
Little by little I got closer and closer to Al and felt like more loving him! But he seemed not to be interested in my business.
I thought to myself why he was like that and I thought he doesn’t trust me! When I talked to him and he guided me, I felt all them are because he deeply loves me. (Or likes me as he says) Whenever I needed I could count on him and he did many things to bear with me, the things those were not even acceptable by him!
I confess that many things had happened meantime! But I swear they were all accidentally, and I really didn’t want them to take place. Who wants these things happen when he or she finds a match who is always there for you?! Sometimes these things are less and sometimes are more, it made the relationship up and down, but still I love him. Everyday more than the passed day! Especially after I made love to him! I could not believe myself and my feelings when I was in his arms! I felt so much more power! I didn’t want to get away when I was in his arms.
These small things continued to get bigger and bigger till someday he said… “Finally, I couldn’t find the way darling you know how much I like you and how much you mean to me but I think I don’t deserve you, you have to find someone who doesn’t care about what you doing and be open minded. If you find the way let me know because I don’t want to lose you darling.”…
Oh my goodness! It was like a hell to me! The only thing I can do is try even more than before! Maybe I could prove myself to him! Maybe he could know I’m trustworthy and I’m not a girl to betray him at all! He is my type and I don’t want to lose him! I have never told him what I did to keep him and never would tell him as well! Hope I am not making mistake!
Hope he could hear my heart! Hope God helps me!
Hope everything could be solved!